i always thot that 1 year is a long time to wait for someone…and then i realized tht it may not be the same with the other person. maybe i’ve took things for granted previously in my life, tht’s why God is allowing me to feel the experience of being on the other side..where everything doesnt go my way and whatever that i took for granted He sumhow took them away. i’m not blaming Him.. i wudn dare. i’m just feeling it that way..
when last time going shopping is a normal thing for me to do on weekends..it has now become a luxury for me to go shopping. when last time i have friends all over..now i’m left with a few good ones(which of cuz i’m grateful of no doubt)..when last time i have no commitments..now i have commitments that sumtimes i shudder to think about.
why has this happen to me? all i can tell myself is that God is teaching me to be humble and to realize tht i’m stronger emotionally then i ever thot i’ll be. sumtimes i want to run away from it all..but then again..who’ll keep my family standing strong if i’m not around. who’ll keep telling my mom to ignore the hurting words of others and be strong.
a friend once told me..whether i know it consciously or not..i’m a fighter because no matter what hardships that come my way i dun give up. the hardest times always reveal the strongest of heart. it is these words that have got me going all this time…and i really have him to thank. Thank God i found a friend in him.
and to my dearest….u may not be there in times of need..u may not be able to lend a shoulder to cry on but i noe u’ll ALWAYS be there…in time to come i noe u will say those words and i pray to God that u WILL say it to me.
*this week has been one of my lowest as far as i can remember…let me go tru this last remaining days in the week and let all new weeks be the greatest ever.
~SpIffY~
