(nOnE) 31 March, 2006

i’ve been doing a lot of thinking recently..particularly bout me and my ‘friend’. see, i even have trouble referring him as my boyfriend. and no i’m not gonna start complaining on how he doesnt have time for me or tht he’s so freaking bz that we havent seen each other in months! *oops! i’ve already complained ther havent i? hehe…i’ll stop.*

the fact is..although he may not seem to be the best bf in the world(or malaysia…or s’ban), i still care for him and he’s important to me. i’ve learned to be a better and more positive person thru him..i’ve learned to stop complaining about my friends, family, life and just appreciates the gud things that God has given me so far. although he cant be there for me in person, i knoe tht i am able to pour out my feelings, dissapointments, anger to him and he’ll willingly listen and advices me..even when i called him late at night and he’s dead tired from working.

he has taught me to respect my parents no matter how frustrated i am at them sometimes and he has taught me to be patient when times are bad because he knows that no matter what God is there. it is because of him that i have more faith in Him(or Her..*shrugs*).

sometimes i tend to ask myself…what actually do i like about him? i really don’t have the answer. it’s just a feeling that i have inside of me that makes me all warm and fuzzy whenever i think of him. and it’s because we hardly see each other that i’ve learn to appreciate him more than i’ve ever appreciated anyone before. it doesn’t matter whether its a sms or a call or even to hear his voice on the phone…it’ll brighten up my day anytime.

i miss you…

~SpIffY~

hmm…interesting. lolzz~~! 31 March, 2006

sounds a bit weird doesn’t it? hahaha…maybe i shud put in my full chinese name. heheh..;o)

Your Japanese Name Is…

Leiko Shigenoi

What’s” your Japanese Name?

~SpIffY~

InSpIraTioNaL tHoTs~~ 15 March, 2006

sum words of wisdom that i got tru my mail recently. i didn’t really spend time going tru it until today and its really inspiring. got me thinking bout leading my life positively..;o)

“I’ve learned that no matter what happens, or how bad it seems today,life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow.”

“I’ve learned that regardless of your relationship with your parents,you’ll miss them when they’re gone from your life.”

“I’ve learned that making a “living” is not the same thing as”making a life.”

“I’ve learned that whenever I decide something with an open heart, I usually make the right decision.”

“I’ve learned that every day you should reach out and touch someone. People love a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back.”

“I’ve learned that I still have a lot to learn.”

“I’ve learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.”

the ones that i’ve bold are those few that i’ve personally keep in mind and heart. gud day all! =)

~SpIffY~

bE StrONG~~ 14 March, 2006

“Whatever course you decide upon, there is always someone to tell you that you are wrong. There are always difficulties arising which tempt you to believe that your critics are right. To map out a course of action and follow it to an end requires courage.” -Ralph Waldo Emerson

i took this quote from a friend’s blog and i totally agree with it. ever thot bout how often people tend to put us down just because we’re not in the same level as they are or they don’t agree with what we’re doing? i think some people are really put into this world to criticize and to put us down so that we really feel bad or negative about the things we’re doing. i’ve been having situations like this recently and for a minute or two i was having these really negative vibe and i was having 2nd thoughts as to whether i shud go on with what i’ve planned…but i want to prove to those people that i’m not a weakling. put me down all u want but we’ll just see who’ll be laughing and crying at the end of the day.

God made me strong for a reason and i’m not gonna put Him down and certainly not friends that are there to support me all the way. a particular friend is always so positive that the things he says to me are so great and powerful that it stays in me and makes me think about my life, the people around me and my inner self. his impact on me is really powerful and to be able to know that i’ll always have a friend like him who is there to support me tru life is wonderful. everyone of us need a friend like him..to guide us, to support us, to tell us ther’s more to life than what we think and i thank God for giving me a friend like him. =)

~SpIffY~

MiSs mE…??~ 7 March, 2006

i’ve finally stumbled back on my own blog..then i remembered i had one..lolzz~ it’s been almost a year(time really flies by so fast!) since i last posted and i do feel a lil bit guilty bout leaving my blog lying around in cyberspace unattended. so i’ll try not to go missing again for another year. heheh…;o)

i watched ’sepet’ the other day(long overdue i noe…) and as much as it talked about love in different race and religion..in real life, it’s really not that simple. not everyone has a ‘peranakan’ mom who is open-minded bout the whole relationship and not everyone has such a sporting mom and ‘kak yam’ that u feel like they’re her friends instead of guardians. yes, her dad did opposed to their relationship in the beginning but its not like they argued til u can feel the roof shaking or anything. what they went tru in the movie is nothing compared to the real life scenarios…

when i heard that the movie had a sad ending, wht flickered in my mind is that one of their parents might go to the end of the world to separate the two lovebirds apart…but alas…it was another different ending altogether. an ending i thought was too easy..please forgive me, i luv the authenticity which yasmin ahmad put into the movie. the language and the characters of the actors and actresses in the movie made it all very malaysian and i salute her for that. truly i do..
but…(well, ther’s alwiz a ‘but’ is ther…haha), like i said..the ending’s just too easy. i’m not saying that it wasn’t sad or heart-wrenching. its just easy…

i’ve been in love with someone who is from a different race and trust me…it’s like hell. hahah… i argued with my mom almost everyday. i was kinda glad that relationship was done and over with..(he wasn’t such a great guy afterall..lolzz~!) but i guess us mortals will never learn. i’m caught in yet another complicated ‘relationship’. this time with someone which no one whom i know will agree to if i ever once said i’m gonna marry him..if you catch my drift. hahah.. till now i dun dare to think if we’ll ever have a future together. =(

i know we live in a multiracial country but yet our society still isn’t really comfortable with people who marries out of their inner circle. i can never understand that mindset some people have. i have once told my mom that if she expects me to only date and marry chinese, the only way is for all of us to go live in china or any other countries which the majority of their population are chinese. it is only logic right?

~SpIffY~