hmm…. i seriously hope that in this new year…everything will be better. the burdens on my shoulders are gettin heavier by the day and i’m jst not sure how long will i be able to keep myself from falling….flat to the ground. sumtimes i really feel tht i’m gonna jst crumble and wun be able to get up anymore. but sumhow, i’m able to keep myself standing strong each day. must be the strength from up above..THANKS! it’s really hard not to have anyone to share my problems with…or jst to have someone to listen to me and understand the situation that i’m in. of cuz i’ve tried to share my problems with friends..it’s jst tht they nvr seem to understand how bad the situation is…they always think tht i’m jst exaggerating stuffs up and it’s not as bad as i made it sound. that’s why i’ve decided to jst keep them to myself and i shall see how long i’ll be standing strong, how long i can keep my shoulders up..if one day i fall…i’ll really fall, HARD. we shall see…;o)
anyway, like they say, there’s always a positive side to every negative one..the positive side of all the burden and stress that i’ve been going tru for so long is that it has taught me to be stronger and more matured. i’ve also realized that i’ve grown so much that i dun feel like a 21(soon to be 22) year old gurl. ppl my age are beginning to start a whole new experience in the workforce or who’re still studying..getting a degree or master..who have no worries except maybe a lil bit of work stress or exams stress here and ther..or mayb problems in their relationships. but me, i’ve gone much much further..which i will not elaborate cuz i dun think i’ll ever finish typing if i do. lolzz~~ till then, i’ll sign off now…have a very happy new year ppl!! ^_^
much luv,
~SpIffY~
